Another day has gone. I’m glad that being a nurse has kept me occupied. Yet I still can’t help but miss him every time something or someone reminds me of him. So here goes another poem to sum up my day…

Some people asked me today why I looked so down
They wondered why I always wore a frown
I told them it’s because you have left our town
So you can earn some cash to buy me a wedding gown.

They said “Don’t you worry, he’ll be back pretty soon,
Don’t act like the world has finally met its doom.
He is a good person, a man worthy to be your groom,
So don’t lock yourself up in your tiny, dark room.”

I pondered upon this and realized they were right –
You are fighting for our love, even if you’re out of sight.
I comfort myself with the fact that your love is shining bright,
As I cuddle up in my bed and sleep through another lonely night.

Goodnight..

Yesterday, Rio went to Cebu. His main reason for going there is to look for a job, earn money, and save enough cash to get us married. He said he won’t be coming back until all this is done. Now as I think about his reason for leaving, I now begin to understand that he did this not for his own benefit, but for us.

So now, I resort back to writing my emotions on “pen and paper”. For 3 long years, we’ve NEVER been away from each other for too long. And as I think of the things that could happen with this long distance relationship, I can’t help it but be scared of the unknown.

From hereon, prepare yourself for a series of sentimental notes and poems that I dedicate solely to us and to our love.

A day has passed since you stepped away from my side
And on a ship to Cebu, you went for a ride
These silent tears I painfully tried to hide
Why has the world have to be this wide?

I think of how I’d survive another night
With only endless darkness within my sight
Thinking of the demons gives me a total fright
Unlike when I’m with you, I always feel the light.

The bed is empty and the sheets are cold
The silence deafens me and I feel like mold
I wish you were here to have and to hold
We could stay that way forever or until we grow old.

But for now all I have is a damp, hardened pillow
This bitter truth is so painful to swallow-
That I’d be alone tonight and tomorrow
So for now in my tears, I continue to sit and wallow.

It’s been a long day and I thank the good Lord that I have survived.. I just wish he was here right now so I won’t feel like mold…

God.. help me make it through the night.. =(

Instructions:
1. Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Take the Personality Quiz (it’s VERY short and easy, really)

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
-walay nakaila kung unsa jud ako batasan.. si farley ug rio ra siguro..

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
committed naman gali cguro ko karon? pastilan kasakit mabulag sa imong gihigugma oi!!!

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Would you believe me if I told you that I’m writing this entry using my Samsung Omnia I900? Maybe that’s not too amazing but for people likd me who have just realized the many benefits of having technology in the palm of your hands already a big amazement.

A friend generously offered to install free internet on my phone, which added up to the convenience I get from my Samsung Omnia. l don’t have to pay any amount to browse my phone anytime and anywhere. But even with this convenience, I know I should give an explanation as to why it took me so long to update my blog..

Firstly, the demands of my job as a dialysis nurse do not give me the luxury of time to do the things I want to do. At times, I almost wanted to quit the job but I carried on because I wanted my mom’s dreams for me to be fulifilled.

Next, too many things have been happening that I find no time at all just to be at peace with my own self. Working 5 days straight in a busy setting has made me too busy (or lazy) to update my blog.

Lastly, I’ve also thought about deleting this blog since I pay to keep it accessible and yet, I don ‘t earn much from it..

So what do you think? Should I keep this blog alive or not?

Yesterday, I did my first cannulations. I did 2 consecutive cannulations to patients who thought I was an expert in what I was doing. It actually made me feel good.I did the cannulations well and the insertion sites did not result to any swelling whatsoever. One patient even told me that he didn’t feel too much pain when I did the insertion. Whew…

Nurse have to lie sometimes to get their patients to trust them. If my patients had known that it was my first time to insert needles into fistulas, then they wouldn’t have allowed me to do the procedure to them.

Being a dialysis nurse has it’s ups and downs. And this recent accomplishment is really an “up” for me. I think I’m kindah excited to go on my next duty.

Prepare for thine needles my dear patients!!